My Journey of Self Discoveries

Time waits for no one

2010-04-11T18:06:00.000+10:00

Wow.. where has the time gone to?

Almost 4 months since my last post and so many things have happened! Let's list in in Chronological order:

1) Parents came and left Melbourne- enjoy 1 month of traveling and being pampered by my mum's cooking. Also made me realise that my cooking skills is definately not at the same par as my mum's. Miss her so much!
2) Finally passed all my professional papers... Cannot believe it myself.. I cried when the results came out.. I know stupid emotional me.. But after spending almost 5 years doing the same thing, having no life and feeling stress every night before exam.. it is really a relief.. Especially when I thought I definately fail this one.. it was one of the happiest day in my life.. We celebrated with Bok Choy Tang at Fed Square.. really nice!
3) Got engaged in January.. It was a suprised and very romantic. Thanks to my dearest bf.. I am not sure how married life is but i know everything will be alright with him by my side.
4) BF's family came for visit.. another month of staying with family members and being pampered with food. Spend some time travelling around Victoria.
5) Went for my Professionalism Course in Sydney and reconnect with old friends (from ages ago).. good to see everyone is doing well and doing different thing.. Feel slightly unaccomplished at the same time.
6) Start a new role in my company..very challenging and I feel stupid every day.
7) Went back to KL for a quick holiday.. managed to lock in our wedding photoshoot date.. Something sad happened during my short trip due to my mismanagement of situation.. not sure if it has been resolved but i hope I am able to resolve it.
8) Back to Melbourne and have my first holiday in Cairns.. my first time snorkeling and holidaying in non-stop rain.. quite therapeutic.. highly recommended.
9) Enrol in CHinese class with exam next week.. Stress again but found that my brain cell has gone off.. Cannot seem to memorise anything.

Wowo that is a long list.. still more to go with wedding prep and new role... Will update soon.. I feel bless and loved.. Hoping for a great 2010 year.. I just need to be careful and attentive with my life. :)

TLC

2009-11-21T23:10:00.000+11:00

I need some drama/romance/TLC in my life!!!! I have been feeling a bit restless lately. Well, I have been pretty busy at work trying to finish a presentation and luckily on Friday, the presentation went really well.. Good feedback from the boss and managers who attended the meeting.. Very happy..

Since then, I have been feeling restless. Not quite sure where the future hold and what direction am I heading to. I have tonnes of things to do this weekend but end up snuggling in bed with a good novel and watching a couple of romantic comedy.. This tends to happen when I am feeling sad, neglected and needed some dramas/romance in my life.

I need to snap out of this mood and start becoming productive again. 1 more week before my parents arrive.. I cannot wait to see them again.

My new resolution

2009-11-17T20:55:00.003+11:00

I went for a long swim today. There are some sad news at work today. One of my colleague’s mum was admitted to hospital (lung failure) and another's dad is now in intensive care from serious heart attack. At times like this, I really miss my parents back in KL. I wish I can be there to take care of them as they have done throughout my stay in KL. Makes you wonder about life....We are always chasing good education, successful career, working long hours to earn more money and building network with friends. BUT do we have to step back and think about what is important in life? Surely our family, those closest to us is the most important and we should treasure them while we can. What are a few promotions or salary increases if you do not have anyone to share it with?

Just my thought for the day...Life is much more complicated than that...

Anyway I have decided to embark on a new journey of self discovery. The first is to understand my own strength, rather my ability to say no to temptation. I am going to try to embark on a diet to lose 5kg. Mind you I have been saying that for the last 10 years but I am still at the same weight. Hopefully this time I can do it. I need to for myself, to find the lost motivated me. I will start with eating more vege, less rice, less meat and more swimming. Anyone with good diet strategy do drop me a line. Good luck to me

The start of the journey

2009-11-16T21:49:00.001+11:00

This is the start of my journey. A journey to discover myself. I have been floating around hoping to reach my dream island without really knowing what is my dream island....

Have you ever wonder what the future hold? I always thought I knew what I want... to be a successful career woman. An independant woman with adequate resources to lead a comfortable life and provide for my family. There was never a shadow of doubt in my mind that I will be able to achieve my dream future..

Now, almost 10 years on, I realised I have not achieve my dream future. Further, I am not sure if I want to.. Does people really change? Is it possible that I have change?

I have no idea.. but this is my journey.. A journey back to time, a journey to the future, a journey to discover my life. I want to find the sparks of motivation that wake me up every morning, produce a smile from my face and the last thing I thought of when I sleep at night.

Is it possible to be 15 again and dream?